Day 2 of Forever

So I have started my quest. First mission is to quit smoking cigarettes. So far so good. The hardest part isn’t the physical cravings. Its the physiological feelings that are so overwhelming.

At one point I felt a strong feeling of missing smoking. Like the fact I would never do it again makes me miss it even though it doesn’t give me any satisfaction.

Other times I feel really depressed. The people around me even seem sadder and grumpy. I feel like it is all in my head but it seems real and is hard to overcome.

But with 2 days down that is over $3.00 saved and I do feel better.

In other news I am in pretty desperate need of some cash right now. I am running short on diabetes insulin pump supplies and need to reorder but my deductible is $500 plus the $240 co pay means I don’t have it.

Trying not to worry about it to much and just take it one day at a time. Try not to spend any money so I don’t make things worse. Not taking out loans even though that would alleviate the anxiety I feel right now. I need to dig myself out of that hole and just drop that habit.

You really shouldn’t borrow money unless you are using it for something you might be able to later call an asset. A house or starting a business are good things. Surviving day to day or having small pleasures like weekend trips are not good things to borrow money for.

Or anything like that really.

Instead of taking that route I am just going to suck it up. The worst that can happen is I go without my insulin pump for a few days and try to survive using good old fashioned needles.

Good night and see you tomorrow.

Getting Started

Hello and welcome to my blog. I am creating this to give me a way to think out how I am going to get my life together.

As of now my bank is negative, my diabetes meds are running low, and I have several addictions that are killing me slowly. We need to get this show started right now.

The good new is I have a job and a good place to live. My car works well and I’m not starving.

On to my goals I need to

a) get an emergency fund together so I can stop worrying about diabetes shit.

b) quit smoking (both weed and smokes), drinking soda, and playing slot machines

c) get $100K together to start my own business

d) get in shape and get my healthcare in order

So four easy goals! Should be pretty quick and painless right? That is why I have been working on them for many years and have little to show for it.

I’m hoping this blog really helps keep me on track. If I can at least update the blog everyday it will give me a feeling of accomplishment. And if I have to update the blog everyday I will need to think about this kind of stuff.

So a few blog goals. I would like to get to 10 daily readers. I don’t want to feel alone in this struggle. I would like to write 300 work posts daily until all 4 goals are completed. Once the goals are completed it will be time for me to move on to other things.

I will also create a goals page that has my main goals and then hopefully those goals split into smaller easier goals to work on.

If you would like to help me out in any way please feel free to reach out. I will answer all who contact me.

Till tomorrow when we really get things going.